So today we went for our first appointment to the OB, let me give you some background about this situation. My husband and I found out we were pregnant almost 2 weeks ago and since then I have felt like I have been given the run around by everyone. This is because my pregnancy is high risk, not because I have had a number of miscarriages, some funky illness, a history of birth defects...nope it's cause I'm a type 2 Diabetic. I have been treated like I have the plague by some of these so called health care professionals. I was accepted by one doctor (after they knew my situation) only to be called 3 hours later and told "sorry, we can't accept you as a patient"..um I'm not applying for a job here people. So now onto dr #2....hmmm is all I can say about that one at the moment, jury is still out on that one right now.
So you may ask so what is day #1 mean?? Well today I got put on insulin and even though I was on it from 7 weeks 3 days with my son (so I did it for a total of 30 weeks with him), this time starting it almost 2 weeks earlier really is taking a toll on my mental stability. Some may be saying it's only a few months that you need to do it and it's for the sake of your child. How can she be so selfish? Well first off I will ask you, have you ever had to give yourself injections? If not, then you have no idea what it feels like and if you have I am sure it was certainly not the funnest thing to do, but you did. I'm not saying I'm not going to do it, I am, just that this time has hit me harder and I never realized how hard it really was to do these injections. They are no fun at all. I have to keep them cold in the fridge so I have to plan meals around it, I have to make sure I eat just enough, but not too much to raise or lower my sugar. I have to learn how to mix 2 different ones in the same syringe and inject it. All this while taking after our almost 3 year old and preparing for when my husband will be gone, which is rapidly hitting the single weeks digits.
Back to a happier note. Our due date is 2/3/12 (s o we are almost 6 weeks pregnant) and we have a long way to go, but today was the first day that I woke up to a peaceful feeling and ready to shout it to the world that we were PREGNANT...lol. Up until today I had this feeling in the pit of my stomach that something wasn't right and today, that weight has been lifted (or the feeling of it has). So I started this blog to write down my feelings, thoughts, emotions while going through this roller coaster ride we call life!
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